Must it always be all at once or nothing at all? I called Jenna last night and we talked for a little while and we agreed to go to dinner and a movie next Saturday night. Well a friend of mine Steve invited Chris and I to come over to his place for a night of poker and beer. Well, little did I know that there would be women at this party as well and that definitely made the game much more interesting. Steve introduced me to his girlfriend’s sister, her name was Taylor. She was quite beautiful with tan skin and green eyes, and yes a body that you definitely wanted to see more of. Well, she was quite the poker player and I definitely enjoyed her company. After the game we all hung out for a while and I got to talking to her. She goes to Ball State also, but I had not ever seen her there before. She told me that she doesn’t spend much time on campus that she still lives at home with her parents, and works at her father’s store. She said that in her free time, she hangs out with her friends and goes out clubbing. She just broke it off with her high school sweetheart, and they had been together for 4 years. She said that she has been wanting to meet someone, but after all that time of dating the same guy, she is not even sure how to go about it.
Well, she was exciting and interesting to talk to. I had red flags going up because she had been in a relationship for so long and was definitely on the rebound. I had been drinking and little and so had she and well, one thing led to another, and I wound up taking her home. I really didn’t mean for this to happen, and I did keep telling Taylor that I wasn’t looking for a serious relationship, and she said she wasn’t either, which I now am really hoping was true. I know this makes me sound like a total dog. I really do like Jenna and want to get to know her better, but Taylor was incredible and in my defense it had been a while since I had been with someone and sometimes things just happen. I just really hope that this doesn’t become a problem especially between Steve and I. I mean I didn’t make her any promises or anything, I was really careful not to with this potential new relationship on the horizon, I really don’t want to mess this one up.
Okay, so I am not really sure why I feel so guilty. I mean I haven’t even had a real date with Jenna yet, and still somehow I feel as if what I did was cheating on her. I haven’t made her any promises or anything, and I really don’t know if things are going to work out, but I guess that I know there was a definite connection there and I don’t want to blow my chance at a real relationship. I mean sex is one thing, but a real relationship is a once in a lifetime.